This blog chronicles my journey as a follower of Jesus who experiences same sex sexual attractions. As an evangelical Christian who adheres to orthodox doctrines, I seek to live faithfully to the vision of sexuality proclaimed in the scriptures, including that God intends for sex to be experienced only in a lifelong heterosexual marriage. I started this blog not because I am anything close to perfect with regard to my sexuality or anything else in my life, for that matter; rather, Jesus is the only perfection in my life. It is Jesus’ kind work of grace in this very flawed man that I want to bear witness to. There are many homosexual Christians in evangelical churches who feel isolated and stigmatized, and it is my hope to give voice to the many who have endured this battle in solitude and to create a sense of community among this group. I envision that the blog posts will consist of personal testimony complemented by related discussions on theology, medicine, natural sciences, psychology, and social policy.
This blog is written anonymously due to the private nature of the posts and my professional responsibilities. I wish the church and our society were at a place where these matters may be discussed without judgment or repercussions, but that is unfortunately not the case. I write with the conviction that readers will relate to the anonymity as many have kept this aspect of the heart entirely hidden, and I hope they find solace in the voice that is being given to their experiences. I may change certain aspects of my story that contain potentially personally identifiable information. For the sake of convenience, please feel free to call me ‘Coagec’ or ‘Coag’.
A little more about me. I am a single Christian man with same sex sexual attractions living in the USA. My relationship with Jesus is the most important thing in my life, and my church home is with the Presbyterian Church in America (PCA). The PCA adheres to orthodox doctrines regarding sexuality and is distinct from Presbyterian Church USA, which recently approved the blessing of same sex unions. I am a physician, and I love my work as I get to participate in God’s work of healing. My friends know me as a sharp guy who can be really silly and hilarious at times.
One word of caution about this blog: as I intend to be as genuine as possible in sharing my own journey, some of the posts, particularly the personal testimonies, may contain frank discussions about my sexuality and life events that may offend some sensibilities and may not be suitable for minors. I will be sharing such matters only for authenticity sake and not for some prurient purposes, and I will seek to keep the descriptions constructive, along the lines of what I might hear from patients in a professional setting.
I would love to hear your thoughts and questions regarding any of the posts. Also, if you know of people who might be interested in this blog, please spread the word and feel free to reblog my posts. I am grateful to all the readers for your interest, contributions, and prayers, especially as this blog is just getting underway.
Ultimately, may God be glorified as His gospel is lived out more truly, more faithfully.